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I called her because my Genie don't work
It doesn't move and the light doesn't light
I don't want to sound like such a big jerk
I try all I can and try as I might
Nothing that I do seems to get it fixed
I've turned the dials and pushed the buttons
but right now I am completely perplexed
I understand that this sometimes happens
so that is why I called you on the phone
cause I can't figure it out by myself
and there's no one else around I'm alone
so now I eagerly ask for your help
I've done all that I could think of doin'
Wait, perhaps if I plug the unit in.

Persuasion

Why did you not ask a girl prettier than me?
Because looks aren’t everything, there’s also personality.
Why didn’t you ask a girl that is nicer than me?
Girls like that are meant to be friends, whole-heartedly.
Why not ask a girl smarter than me?
Say yes and I’ll show you that there is none smarter than thee.
If I say yes, what will you show?
A kind, romantic me you’ll get to know.
If I say yes, where will we go?
We will go as high as we can, taking it slow.
How long will you love me though?
As long as winds blow, flowers grow, and rivers flow.

My Offer

I cannot give the world to thee,
for the world is not mine to give.
I do, however, give thee something
that no other may have, my life.
For if your life force dissipates,
then so doth mine.
In thine eyes is my soul,
and every time thou shows content
in your eyes, my soul smiles.
But when tears are in thine eyes,
my soul doth frown.
In thy lips lies my heart
and whenever you smile,
my heart feels warmth.
But when thou dost frown,
my heart feels pain.

Asking Out

Would you like to dance?
All I'm asking for is a chance
to hold your body close to me
and kiss your lips so tenderly
I'll always be there to defend
All the time until the end
I wish to gaze into your eyes
and free myself from the lies
When I see you I know you're the one
that I have to ask this one question
while I'm in this hypnotic trance
Would you care to dance?

Gift

I'd give her diamonds, but next to her eyes
the diamonds would look like tarnished silver
I'd dress her in silk, but next to her skin
the silk would feel like sandpaper
I'd send her flowers, but next to her body
the flowers would smell like rotten filth
I'd have the bluebird sing, but next to her voice
the bluebird would sound like a hoarse crow
I'd feed her honey, but next to her lips
the honey would taste as bitter as salt
so the best gift I can give her is my love.

It's Like

When I look into her eyes
I swear I'm looking at the stars
When I touch her skin
it's like catching a feather
her scent reminds me of perfume
yet is better than any I've ever smelled
when I hear her sing
it's like listening to a choir of angels
when I taste her kiss
it's like I'm eating candy
and when I'm with her
it's like summer every day

Tranquil Comfort

my heart beats as
gentle as the falling
rain as it coats
your hair turning
it into a silver
sapphire. As the water
clings to your skin
You cling to my side
for safety. Within
my arms you shall
be protected and
nothing but raindrops
shall ever hit you.
you close your
eyes because
you know I'll
never wander
too far for you
to reach.

No Contest

When it comes to looks, I am no match to Tom Cruise
as far as voice goes, Bryan Adams is way better than me
the words I write are nothing compared to shakespeare
my physique doesn't come close to Schwarzenegger or Stalone
But when I look into your eyes I do see
that I am the best for you and you for me

Making Love

Her blues eyes seemed to welcome me
her ruby lips invited enticingly
her auburn hair beckoned a call
I had to have her once and for all
I walked up to her slowly
I no longer had the feeling of being lonely
I laid to rest my lips against hers
the kiss was greater than all pleasures
I've ever experienced before
she, however, wanted more
she wanted more than a simple kiss
she had to feel more of my bliss
our bodies became rapt with passion
feeling each other's physical attraction
I gently slid her clothes off her body
she whispered, "I want you inside of me."
I too shed all of my clothes from toe to head
I picked her up and smoothly laid her on the bed
we moaned from the pleasure and the pain
both of our faces showed alot of strain
after we had finished and were done
our two hearts, spiritually became one.

Appreciation

I thank thee for allowing me to walk among thy presence.
to say that you're as beautiful as an angel would be an insult to your appearance
Your blue eyes warm the coldest of hearts and your brown hair graces your back
It'd be more torture to never see your face again than to spend eternity in a rack
it hurts so much to see a beautiful face with lips I will never kiss
I am foolish so this thought I will dismiss
but if you think me not a fool, please speak your mind
I'll always be around. I won't be hard to find
This I say to you because I adore your beauty
all things peaceful is what you appear to be.

Departure

If there's one thing that I know
that is if you were leaving
I wouldn't be able to go
on with my life without grieving.
It just wouldn't be
the same with you gone.
I don't really know me
I'm sorry I lead you on.
I didn't want to lie
I didn't feel right
I did want to die
when you left my sight.

Protect

She looked into his eyes
She knew he was absent of lies
Being held in his arms
Knowing that no one can do her harm
She smiled up at him
She knew he wouldn't commit sin
She's known him for quite a while
And she has no denial
Her love for him is strong
And will last ever long.

With You

If you want to laugh
then I'll laugh with you
If you want to cry
then I'll shed a tear or two
If you want to smile
then I'll smile also
and if you want to frown
then a frown I will show
just remember no matter what you want to do
I'll be there to do it with you.

My Heavenly Angel

You are my heavenly angel
with your bright eyes and your warm smile
you are my heavenly angel
with your soft touch and your kind heart
you are my heavenly angel
with your gentle spirit and your smooth skin
you are my heavenly angel

I just wish that angels existed.

In the words of a heart

What words can I say that would woo such beauty
so much grace and charm for the eyes to see
but whenever I close my eyes to ease the pain of not having you
your scent still lingers and reminds me of how much I'm craving you
Oh how I long to taste your lips and feel your skin
but I am unworthy of these things, they might be considered sin
but a life of purgatory might be worth it
might be worth just a simple kiss

If I could

If I could I would gather all the stars from above and give them to you
If I could I would stop time to spend this moment with you forever
If I could I would take away all of your pain
If I could I would wipe away all of your tears
If I could I would make sure you happiness is safe and secure
but if I can't do any of these things I will do as much as I can
to make sure that you feel loved.

My Dieing Breath

On my dieing breath I want to tell you I love you
I want to tell you that you mean the world to me
With my dieing breath I want to say I'm sorry
I want to apologize for all the pain I've cause you
For my dieing breath I want to tell you how much I'll miss you
I want to wipe the tears of loneliness from you eyes
I know that you have always been there for me
And it hurts to know that I won't be there for you anymore
Therefor I will you use my dieing breath to kiss you good-bye.

Vision

I wonder if my eyes deceive me
what is this beauty I perceive in thee
could it be thine flowing hair
or the way thou walks on air
or perhaps the ruby in your lips
maybe the way you move your hips
when you walk in the garden
bringing more flowers to bloom than the sun
the fairness of your skin is matched only
by your true personality
and when those lips curl and you smile
I could sit here all the while
that you are with me.

Journey

My darling why is it that you cry
when I haven't spoken the words good-bye
when I said, "see you later." that's what I meant
because our time together is well worth spent
so you may miss me while I am away
but I promise that I will return someday
so please for me wipe the tears from your eyes
because your love for me has made me realize
that no matter how far apart we are
we both are under the same shining star

How Do I Know?

If I love you how will I let you know
What are the words that I have to speak
to show you you mean everything and more to me
How can I let you know that
every time you're away a piece of me
is missing and every time
I see you again this puzzled heart is complete
But how do I show you these are more than just words
How can I tell you that whenever I see you cry
it hurts me so much inside
and every time you smile
it's like a carnation blooming inside my heart.

True Beauty

I hunger but 'tis not for food
and I don't mean to intrude
but I couldn't help but see
your remarkable beauty
you better be aware of jealousy
from the goddess aphrodite
and I've also realized
the brightest stars are your eyes
I'm sure these are all words
that you've already heard
but I don't care cause what I say is true
the most beautiful person I know is you

How do I say the Words

I would like to tell you how cute you are
but I am too afraid that you will not
believe me when I say how sweet you
smell How is it that I tell the brightest
stars I have ever seen rest within your
eyes? Or the fact that your smile could
make a rose bloom on a cold december
night? Why is it that whenever I you
speak I hear a sweet melody?
Could it be that you are as lovely
in all aspects as I envision
Nay, you are far more beautiful

Angels Can't

I always said angels can't have brown hair, but you proved that wrong.
I always said angels can't have brown eyes, but you proved that wrong.
I always said angels can't have fair skin, but you proved that wrong.
I always said angels can't sing beautifully, but you proved that wrong.
I always said angels can't be perfect, but you definitely proved that wrong.
But I'll never taste your internal bliss because an angels lips I can never kiss

If I Lose You

I don't know if I can make things right
but I'll try even if it takes all night
if you want me to comfort you just let me know
put your arms around me and hold me close
you can wipe your tears on my shirt
if it will take away the hurt
you can scream all you want if it will ease the pain
because if I lose you I'll have nothing to gain

I can see the tears in your eyes
and I get sick of all the lies
how everyone says it will be okay
but they don't have to live with this day to day
so as I sit here with you in my arms
I try to keep you from any harm
I don't want anything bad to happen
because if I lose you I'll be empty again

I'm Sorry

I'm sorry that I made you cry
If I told that I wasn't sorry
that would be a complete lie
I want to dry off your tears
I want you to be happy
when I say that I'm being sincere
every time I see a tear fall from your face
a tear that is from something I did or said
I want to be banished from this place
I would let the world swallow me whole
so if you will lay to rest your head
and comforting you will be my only goal

Lost and Found

Although you may not always know where I'm at
at least know that I wish you were there with me
and if you're not my company for the evening
then I become a lonely soul
You can always count on my to return to your heart
because that's where your love lies
and that is also where my hatred dies
because in life I have one simple goal
to make sure that you are happy
no matter what the cost may be

Love you so

I don't think you know
that I really love you so
how can I make you see
that you mean the world to me
I would put my life on the line
just to be sure that you're fine
anything that I could do
to show that I love you
I would do without question
but this major separation
it kills me a bit
but I have faith in it
faith that my heart will remain yours
so that one day our love will soar

Be my Angel

Will you be my angel
and watch over me in the night
will you be my angel
and hold me good and tight
will you be my angel
and let me know everything's alright

I can see it in your eyes
I feel it in your kiss
and when you take my hand
you make me realize
that you are the one I miss
and I think about you when I can

Will you be my angel
and watch over me in the night
will you be my angel
and hold me good and tight
will you be my angel
and let me know everything's alright

And so the story goes
of my love won't die
no matter what you do or say
so it grows and grows
and you stay by my side
because you know we'll find a way

Will you be my angel
and watch over me in the night
will you be my angel
and hold me good and tight
will you be my angel
and let me know everything's alright

If you will be my angel
then I will be yours

Lust or Love

Is this lust or is this love
I want to taste your lips
but do I want oto feel your kiss
I long to hold you in my arms
But will they protect and comfort
or will they trap and bind you
I remember the game we played
but was it with you that I enjoyed it
or was it just the game
I traveled a thousand miles
in search of answers but the experience
turned out more questions that I can hold
so now I have one question to ask
and it's not, "Do you love me?"
but rather, "Do I love you?"

How I feel

I want to tell her how I feel
I want to tell her she brings a smile to my face
every time that I think of her
I want to tell her she makes me my day
every day that I see her
I want to sing those songs to her
but I can only sing them to her reflection
and she doesn't notice because our eyes never meet
I would do things for her that I wouldn't do
for anybody else
I want to tell her how I feel
but I'm not sure I know how.

If it Were Up to Me

If it were up to me this day would never end
the sun would never set
and the moon would never rise
and I would never have to stop
gazing into her eyes
I will stop however for a kiss
but once the kiss is gone
then it will be what I miss

If it were up to me this moment would always last
I would just lay with her for eternity
but then there will be no future
and she won't have any kids with me
I would let the moment pass
in hopes our future will ever last

Alone

All of the people look at me
Looking past me at the wall
Over my head at the ceiling
Never do they notice that
Even when I'm there, I'm not

So now they walk away
One by one they leave
Looking for something else
Instead of seeing me
They completely ignore me
As they walk by
Refusing my attention
Yet... I don't care.

Understand

Do you have any idea how much I want to bleed right now?
to feel the ripping flesh and hear the tearing sound
I want to see a crimson river flow from my body
maybe then I'll have peace and maybe die happily
or perhaps all I need to do is rip out my worthless heart
I would remove it with force and tear it apart
I don't expect you to understand my state of mind
but perhaps you will understand when comes time
you might think that this would cause a lot of pain and torment
but true pain and suffering is when you say something you meant
and the person regards these as merely words from your mouth
so then to be heard you scream the words and shout
but if they didn't hear you when you spoke clearly
how could they listen now when you yell incoherently?

Party

Why am I here to them I don't exist
I should leave now, I won't be missed
The music pounds though the floor
my head is in pain and I can't take anymore
I'm writing this out of hatred
For dignity I have not a shred
I tried to be social, to converse
she didn't want to hear me rehearse
my story about how I had a rough day
she didn't care about the replay
then everybody left and I got some rest
but then they came back but I couldn't protest
they would never listen, I'm insignificant
to them I am anything but important
of course I'm not interesting at all
they would love to see me stumble and fall
so finally we decided to leave there
we chose to walk somewhere, anywhere
so now I'm sitting here writing this poem
and I wonder if I should go back home

Listen

do you ever listen to me?
Or do you merely hear
the words that I speak

if you could only see
the eyes within fear
then I won't be weak

why am I so afraid
what is there to hide
why do I always run

my happiness begins to fade
my misery comes from inside
anger burning hotter than the sun

my tears begin to fall
the blood turns to ice
my heart is black

I hide against the wall
wondering what the price
of getting my life back.

Inside

I've searched for a soul inside myself
but I completely ignore the pleas for help
sometimes I wonder where my heart lies
as I listen to their painful cries
when I look inside I only find
a twisted, insane, blood-thirsty mind
my appearance may look quite normal
but upon which I am forced to call
forth the demons that lie deep within
to surface and make my looks almost a sin
thus the blood courses through my veins
feeling the sufferings of my victims and their pains.

Enemy

A fire burns inside this tortured soul
my want to bleed grows stronger every day
the need to feel pain increases with every moment
as I sit here with my wretched thoughts
my enemy thrives inside my heart
I want to banish it to the farthest reaches
but I know this cannot be done without
tearing out a piece of myself, a piece
that I cannot live unless I have it
I say that my worst enemy is human kind,
but my enemy mentioned before is far worse
this enemy is the act of caring and
if I get rid of that I get rid
of all that is me.

Lifeless

I feel the rain fall upon my head
it makes me realize, I'm not dead
but trust me I'm not alive
I merely do what I do to survive
if I didn't then a promise will be broken
then no heart will love, no word spoken
All hope of dreams will be lost
amongst all the destruction and chaos
and when I look to the rising sun,
to look upon such natural beauty will stun
the mind, the heart, and the soul,
my heart feels the blackened hole
that rests inside of it deeply
and my insanity will be gone completely
for those few precious hours
just before the bleeding of the flowers

Death Among Us

As I looked at the decaying corpse
the smell of rotting flesh filled the room
I didn't feel any regret or remorse
I had been this person's doom
Now he lies here, awake, but not alive
his eyes look everywhere, but see nothing
he struggled, he tried to survive
but he couldn't stop me from stabbing
him in the neck, causing him to bleed
severely from the wound of flesh
Now, with the knife in hand, I need
to clean off the blood still fresh.

Conscious

I'm the voice inside
telling you where to hide.
Speaking the truth to you,
you'll do whatever I tell you to.
Then as I give up my position,
you go through a transformation.
You think you have it under control,
but you can't grasp your soul.Self-EsteemI close my eyes to hide my tears
I have no confidence to face my fears
I am foolish, I decide way too soon
I keep cutting it open instead of healing the wound
they say they'll miss me they say they care
but how can they see how I feel when they're not there
they cannot see the torture I feel when I'm left all alone
they don't see the pain inside me when I have no one to call my own.

Meaningless

What is the point of anything anymore
why keep doing things we've done before
is there any real reason for this
is there such a thing as true happiness?
The roads before us have all been paved
so what makes you worthy of being saved
when you are one of the many
you're biased opinion makes it hard for you to see
that what you are are doing isn't helping at all
you work and play but in the end it's going to fall
so while you sit there with your pointless entertainment
there's only one message left to be sent
of all the things I've wanted to do
I never wanted to be just like you
but I help the thing that fuels my hatred
you ask me why and I can only shake my head
so now all I really wish to do is die
but I am forced to watch the years pass me by.

The Image

I take a look and see a tortured soul
a being that has no control
has no grasp on himself
someone that needs help,
but can not ask for it
because then he will forfeit
everything that he has worked for
and the truth will be no more
I see a being that needs to be shunned...
I see my reflection.

Stolen Heart

My life is like my love, I know it exists, but it just isn't there
I find it hard to believe that I would actually care
about something that I would normally find meaningless
but it lingers like a beacon of distress
causing me to lie awake in the middle of the night
as I try to make the pain go out of sight
but once I lose it I'll have nothing left
like a crook being caught for petty theft.

Missing Friend

Everything that I write seems to be
nothing more than repeated misery
it seems I don't have any new material
which makes my problems seem so serial
so I don't see why anyone would wanna hear
about my petty situations that I can't make clear
they say they listen... they say they care
but how can I trust them when they're not there
It seems that when I need them the most
they're not there vanished like a ghost.

The Pain

The pain eats away at me like a fire consuming a forest
I wish I could make it go away. I wish I could put out the fire
but it is useless for me to even try so I just let it devour me from the inside
Inside, the place where no one can help me fight the agony and the distress that is my life

What is Love?

Love is a feeling that makes you feel warm and cold at the same time
Love makes it seem like your stomach is all twisted and tied
It makes the strongest of men bend to their knees.
It makes the most immortal of men do as you please
At least that's what I think love is I can't really say for sure
because I've never experienced this feeling before.

Grip

I can feel myself starting to slip
I can feel myself losing my grip
Losing all sense of reality
Losing my sense of sanity
watching as I become sick
watching as my happiness dies quick
sitting wondering if it's a lie
sitting wondering how I feel inside
I hope tomorrow will be brighter
I hope that my grip becomes tighter

Caught Between Heaven and Life

In the darkness I sit and wait
for the pain inside of me to leave
I look at my watch and it's getting late
I'm unable to see the happiness that I receive
so in my tears I must wallow
and in my blood I will soak
my suffering and my pain I will swallow
these are the screams that I hear the words spoke
they are all inside of me
trying to escape this prison
they all are dieing to be free
and I am dieing along with them.

Care

so what difference does it make if I die
nobody would miss me anyway nobody would care
a lot of people say that they care but how can
they care when they don't even know me
it seems to me that the only people that
really care about me don't even tell me
so now as I sit here bleeding my life away
I take a look back and realize what a waste
my life has been I now feel the cold darkness
come over me and since there is no
turning back and I don't even care.

Do you Know

Do you have any idea what it's like to be alone
to not have somebody to call your own
to have not one to hold on to tight
no sweet love to kiss good night
do you know what it's like to cry so many forgotten tears
do you know what it's like to do so for so many years

Angel From Hell

I want so much to see a person die
but if I see somebody in need
I reach out and grab their hand
but I have so many evil ambitions
I have so many evil thoughts
but my kindness won't let me carry them out
I am an Angel from Hell

Numb

the rose that once bloomed has started to wither
and now there is nothing left except a shell
my pain begins to hurt and my fear quiver
and there is nothing left for me to tell
but I sit here mumbling out words anyway
I don't really see the point of this all
no matter what I do or say
the only thing I'll end up doing is fall
so upon my death I will become
the very thing I truly hope for
and my feelings will grow numb
and I will not be anymore

The Park

Laughing Laughing Laughing
she plays with her friends
as they run through the park
then from out of the shadows
I come and take her
and she screams

Screaming Screaming Screaming
she screams for someone to help
she screams for her mommy
she screams for her daddy
I show her their corpses
and she cries

Crying Crying Crying
She begs me to let her go
She pleads and makes promises
promises that she won't keep
so I slice open her throat
and she dies.

Burning Angel

Emotions running deep
eyes beginning to weep
The blood begins to creep
hopefully I'll fall asleep

And when I wake
my dreams will break
as my body begins to shake
and I put everything at stake

I go through the day
with nothing to say
I never get my way
so I end up having to pay

My mind has bound my heart
it awaits to be torn apart
I don't know when it will start
this priceless work of art

Within my life I find
I can't leave the memories behind
I can see, but I'm going blind
and I am free to be kind

but kindness has gotten me nowhere
so into myself I stare
unconsciously I'm unaware
of this hellish nightmare

So if I saw me
I would calmly
tie the rope tightly
and let myself go free

Are you Afraid?

A dead person brushes by you
you don't know what to do
you say to yourself it was just a breeze
you tell yourself that to put your mind at ease
then you feel it again and it's like ice
you try to think of an explanation, anything would suffice
you don't want to believe that it's a ghost
because that's the thing you doubt the most
but deep in your mind you know the truth
and you dismiss it like the voices of the youth
so after telling all the excuses you made
ask yourself, "are you afraid?"

Do Not Speak Unto Me

Do not speak unto me
your voice I care not to hear
Allow me to be free

You keep interrupting unexpectedly
I never make my thoughts clear
Do not speak unto me

Why do you think that you're free?
to do what you want without fear
Allow me to be free

Why is it that you can't see
your words cause a tear
Do not speak unto me

There is you and I there is no we
the flesh of my skin begins to sear
Allow me to be free

What is it you want me to be
why do you always want me near
Do not speak unto me
Allow me to be free

Life or Death?

so you say you have nothing to live for
well I'm here to tell you that it's true
I don't want to hear it anymore
you know what you need to do
you keep telling me that you want to die
I'm not the one you'll have to do it yourself
I'm not holding anything back I won't lie
I won't listen to your pleas for help
you are as pathetic as you think
so don't let them tell you otherwise
watch you soul and your spirit sink
and if you try to compromise
you'll only end up worse than before
so slit your wrists, swallow the pills
all bets are off it's time to settle the score
so please kill yourself, or else I will

Helpless

Do you have any idea what it feels like to be helpless?
No matter what you do there's nothing
that you can do to make it better;
nothing you can say to make the pain go away.
Sometimes I wish that it would just take a snap
of my fingers and all the hate and all the pain
would just vanish from this place.
But what I really hate more than the pain,
more than the suffering, is the fact that there is nothing
I can do about it. So now I know I should help myself,
but how am I supposed to help myself when I don't
know what I even want to do.
Do I want to be in music and movies?
or do I want to be an accountant?
or do I just want to go from dead end job to dead end job
for the rest of my life?
I've thought about taking the easy way out,
but that would be too hard on her

Questions

How could you do that to her?
I ask the man standing in front of me
you were the world to her
but you just wanted to be free
she cried when you left
she begged you not to go
how could you have been so cold
and told her she would never know
how do you think that made her feel
do you know what it's like to be rejected
it's like a throbbing wound
one that has been infected
and now she is affected by you
her heart is filled with much pain
and whenever she thinks of you
the tears start to fall again
tell me how you could leave her alone
you wouldn't visit her
hell, you wouldn't even talk on the phone
so tell me what it takes to be so cold
what is it like to never again
touch the hand you used to hold
what did she do did she cheat, lie
did she steal or was she mean
what was it that made you say good-bye
these are the questions I ask
the man standing in front of me
but my reflection cannot answer them

Parental Love

Mommy please make the pain go away
I don't want to live with this day to day
I keep seeing the hurt in your eyes
and I don't want to believe his lies

Daddy please make this pain go away
I don't want us to live this way
I keep seeing the pain in your eyes
but please believe it's not you she despises

Mommy please tell me everything will be ok
but then don't turn around and say
that it will never get better
because I can feel my eyes get wetter

Daddy please tell me it will be alright
tell me that you and mommy will stop this fight
but then don't turn around and yell
because I don't like the lies that you tell

I love you both please don't do this
if one of you leaves then you I will miss
How is it that you can hate so much
and then tell me that you love me such?

Love to Hate

What is it that makes love die?
is it the same that makes it blind?
no matter what I do, how hard I try
I always get left behind

Some say that there's no such thing
as happilly ever after they feel
that the songs that they sing
will become old and not real

Why is it that people need to hate?
is it something that people choose
or is it destiny, or is it fate?
but pretty soon we'll all lose

Betray

Perhaps it's when people betray.
They say one thing then do another.
And we should forgive them, but we don't.
Why? because they are not sorry.
Does one not have to ask for forgiveness before obtaining it?
So when the betrayer does not ask for forgiveness
the betrayed is lead to believe that the person did it on purpose
and begins to grow contempt for that person,
but why did the betrayer betray in the first place
was he/she tempted,
did the other person do something that angered him/her?
If this be the case then why didn't he/she talk to him/her about it
instead of taking matters into his/her own hands
and if the thing done was punishment was it cruel and unusual
and did it fit the crime and did he/she feel bad about it afterwards.
Unfortunately if this starts it's hard to stop and since it did start
I don't think it will ever stop.
It also makes me wonder if I've been betrayed
and more importantly who I've betrayed.

He

He looks down upon the earth
He looks upon the forests and meadows
He looks upon the mountains and valleys
He looks upon the deserts and oceans
He watches as a butterfly flies by
fresh from its cocoon casing
He watches as a bee collects pollen
for the queen at his nest
He watches as a lion kills a zebra
in order to eat and survive
He then looks upon the city
He looks upon the skyscrapers
He looks upon the streets and sidewalks
He looks for the nature, but it's hard to find
He looks upon the cars and buses and planes
He looks upon the trucks and cycles and trains
He watches as one guy kills another
over a mere matter of twenty dollars
He slowly shakes his head and wonders, "Why?"

A Long Poem Over a Short Walk

Will you kindly take a walk with me
with blue skies and nature around
unto a field where flowers grow abound
time is often wasted, almost never spent wisely
there is always enough time to do writing now
but never enough time to write music with sound
there's never enough time to sleep, to rest
but time enough to destroy humans as a jest
18 years alive, 3 days have been worthwhile
concerts, stories, songs, love, hate are things I miss
I dare not help humans for they live in denial
I dare never to break my promise
Never do I want to care about myself
time is money spent foolishly by me
I hear only the punc hline of a joke told not too long ago
bright warm eyes that seem to say "hello"
I am an extraterrestrial specimen upon the table
a romantically clever mind never clear nor stable
will you walk with me a bit longer
I should be a falcon, flying, belonging to the vastness of it all
but I'm stuck in the midday sitting upon the couch at the mall
Death, a dove, greets me with a black rose in its beak. My fear stronger
Time passes like a cheetah Fast one minute, the next, not
my life, I feel, is wasted doing a little, doing a lot
I am creative and romantic like Shakespeare
I am the star shining dimmest that appear
I see myself laying down to die
but tis only a vision in my eye
this walk was over when darkness fell
so now I bid the farewell.

Creativity

so what exactly is creativity
thoughts, emotions, opinions.
so what if it's not in the form of poetry
I think that all that matters
is whether or not you actually thought of it
otherwise when the glass shatters
then your own ideas will omit.

BlackJack

I turn up the fist card, Ace.
I flip the second card, face.
I flip the third card then, heart.
I flip the fourth card then start
to realize what I have done,
I'm only supposed to go to 21

Samurai

walk around this dirty ol' town
waiting for something to go down
when all of a sudden the person walks out
and he proves beyond a shadow of a doubt
that there is no one equal to him
and he draws out his sword and grins
he requests anyone to stand and fight
anybody that would challenge him in the night

Eh Whatever

I'm just going to write whatever comes to mind
some of the words will me mean and others kind
I don't know if I'll write out of pain and torment
or if the words I produce will show sentiment
I must hurry because I'm running out of time
but I'm not sure if this is going to be my last line
or if I'm going to continue this piece
but I think this is going to cease.

I'm not sure

I'm not sure what I should write
I might be sitting all night
I can't quite think of the words
you may think it to be absurd
that a poet like me is broken
but all the words have been spoken
so I sit here wondering what to do
so I think I'll write a little poem to you
or maybe perhaps I'll write a song
it might be short one, it might be long
but one thing that I know for sure
is that if I write I'll want to write more
wait, is this poem about love or hate
I think that by this time it would be too late
to decide which one it is
kinda makes me nervous like a pop quiz
hmmmm I wonder if this ever going to end
or remain forever like a friend
a friend that is always there
someone who knows you and doesn't care
I feel that I should continue writing this
continue on with this bliss
but I'm running out of things to say
so I think I'm going to stop for today.

Skip

I don't care where we go
just as long as we skip
we could go watch flowers grow
or watch as the sun slips
behind the horizon
and the stars come out
then the day will be gone
but plenty to talk about

A Co-oP Poem

Tell me why I should bother to go on living
give me the reason to continue on
why should I waste my life just to fail
why should I keep on wasting my words and my beliefs
and my beliefs won't allow me happiness
I don't see why I haven't already taken a life
especially my own seeing as how that's the most useless
well to me anyways and probably to everyone else
I don't know if I should go ahead and go through with it
or if I should keep on suffering so no one else will have to.

Upon my eyes I see a blooming rose
one with starry eyes and ruby lips
hair cascading down her back like a waterfall
skin fair to the touch of a baby's face
and inside a heart worthy of that kindness
but what does she in me
the pathetic nature of myself

So I think that I'm going to take this knife
and cut a hole into my wrists and let
my sweetness flow from my veins
and let myself linger in the darkness
and yet somehow I think I am there already

I am watching the time as it slowly passes
I wish that everything moved as steadily
but that's not the way it is with life
time and life are quite different
one ends and the other is ever continuing
a similarity is that you can't go back in either

so waiting so long to ask her is a bad idea
but I can't help it I can't help but see
that she would never wanna go out with me
what would I have to offer her
except my love, my dedication and my words
I could buy her gifts I could try
as hard as I can to make her happy,
but that is all I could do for her
and to me she deserves more than that

Painful??

I've been in a couple of accidents
I've fallen face first onto cement
being stabbed with a pen hurts like hell
and being cut with a razor doesn't feel too well
I've even broken a bone or two
I seem to hurt myself no matter what I do

but the thing that hurt most of all
is when you kicked me in the balls
you laughed at me for being a fool
and then you went and kicked me in the jewels

I have burned myself before
been dragged across a stone floor
once I had a needle shoved in my eye
felt so much pain that I wanted to die
I had my head slammed into a stand
and then they cut off my left hand

Whisper

I hear a whisper carried by the wind
It speaks softly into my ear
Faded by the distance
I can barely tell what it is saying

It tells me that I’ve been a friend
That is what I hear
Knowing my existence
And I see that I am praying

I hear the whisper once again
This time it’s harsh
Telling me I’ve betrayed
Someone that I really care for

I can only receive I cannot send
The message I wish
I’m sorry for what I said
Without forgiveness then I am poor

A Death Ballad

He finally laid himself to rest
pulled the trigger and put a bullet through his chest
he could feel his heart start as it stopped
then he went and dropped
He fell onto the floor
because he could take the pain anymore
Now the bullet is poisoning his body
even in death he is unable to be free

She made him feel complete
he love to listen to her heart beat
it was a soothing sound to him
within her eyes he would swim
staring deep into the ocean
and saying I love you when
he saw that pretty face
it didn't matter the place
when it came to love there was no shame
and swore everything he proclaimed

They ate pizza with a bunch of friends
not knowing how the night would end
they told jokes and they laughed
he seemed to have an art for this craft
of making her lips curl and smile
and there was no denial
the feeling was growing stronger
he wanted to belong to her
so he takes a chance and gives a kiss
an opportunity she was glad he didn't miss

As he saw her gracefully walking by
he built up the courage to say hi
he told his name was Mike
and asked what music she liked
she said she liked country
and mentioned that her name was Betty
they shook hands and they met
and as they walked and time went
they became acquaintances... buddies
discussing point of view and histories
and with time they would laugh and cry
and little did he know, for her, he would die

Dear Sweet Mother

Last year I saw you through my eyes
you held me in your arms
and knew that you would protect me
and I felt that you would

Last week I saw you through my eyes
I asked you for something
but all you said no
I kept asking why
but you never told me

Yesterday I saw you through my eyes
I saw myself becoming a little like you
I got myself a job
I got myself responsibility
but I have a long way to go

Today I see you through my eyes
you are not the same as you were at first
but everybody changes
yet some things did not
and I am thankful for those things

The Long Days

with respect to John Updike

like the way, in summer, I
take a walk with the sunny sky
birds do chirp with delightful glee
and fly high above me

Like the dew that grips the grass
I hold on to the past
When in the summertime
I played in the sunshine

Now the children in the street
laugh with everyone they meet
and their parents in their chairs
are glad they're out of their hairs

The children are gone for the day
they went inside to their toys to play
but outside, I still linger
like the voice of a famous singer.

Stranger's Soul

A lonely soul walking in the street
everywhere he goes he follows his feet
Every person he meets, he changes their view
Every town he visits, he smells something new

He goes from place to place searching for a home
but until he finds it, he'll continue to roam
He'll wander until the sun goes down
then he'll walk through the nightly gown

I have met this man of legend
told his tale to my friend
but during the tale I begin to see
that the wandering stranger is me

Creature

As a creature he was numinous
with features mysterious
He was always very blunt
and always did some insane stunt
I have never seen his temper lost
It just goes away like the morning frost
He was kept under strict rules
pointless like conflicting fools
I have never seen him crumble
Always spoke clearly never did he mumble
Spending time with him was always a blast
from ever since long past

My Amigo

I see you there
in the field
smoking your cigarette
It is a warm spring day
gentle breezes blow by
I see your cigarette
glowing lightly
You deny everything and defy all
I see your wings
spread out in all glory
Your sky is dark, filled with rain
I am the black screams of your victims
I see you there
in the field
smoking a cigarette
My sky is lined with a tortured soul